“Fussing always ends in sin. We imagine that a little anxiety and worry are an indication of how wise we are; it is much more an indication of how really wicked we are. Fretting springs from a determination to get our own way.” – Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest
God is using this time to teach me things. Rather, He has started clearing things out of my life so that he can teach me things. After traveling for a month, packing and re-packing every day or two, we finally settled in one bedroom for our two week orientation, and I was ready to be productive. Except I left my computer at our last stop and wouldn’t be able to get it until after these weeks. It’s surprising how much of my work depends on a computer, it turns out. So I’ve been dipping in to the vast library of books here at Shalom Retreat Center, learning about, among other things, how to life a life abiding in God instead of just being busy all the time. We’re well taken care of here – there are warm homecooked meals and all the tea I can drink, and fellowship with some amazing people, but when we’re back in California we’re not entirely sure how we will handle transportation, dental visits before insurance runs out, and funding this next two to ten years. But God is good. He has already provided a truck for us to use in Texas, a house to stay in when we return to Pasadena, and the beginnings of funds for the future through an unexpected donation of funds leftover from a nonprofit Greg worked for years ago. So we know God will continue to provide. It’s just too bad that it seems we need to be in a place of dependence before his greatest provisions occur. “Abide in me and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you unless you abide in me.” – John 15:4
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